Another Friday

My sickness has got better, but I still can't concentrate so much in class. I have been thinking why am I so weak? Today I had the worst presentation day ever. I ruined my group's hard work into shreds of awkwardness. I hate to admit it, but I was brutally stupid. My friends said that I was very good, but I can't feel that myself.

My logic is still not working on maths. I had a very hard time to get along with it. I felt so embarrassed when I got stuck in questions that I can usually finish in no time. Now, I am the greatest bum ever. I had the feeling that I was the most stupid student in class. I think it was a mistake to jump a grade, after all. I should have let myself be balanced and now I don't think I'm mature enough to be able to stand the 1st grade of HS. Its a pain in the ass, but I feel glad because even though this is killing me, Indonesian schools would've already made me kill myself since 2 weeks ago. I have a huge threat. This threat is my stupidity. My silly mind would never be the mind I've always wanted to have. I am screwed. Now I am writing emosome.

I'll say more later..

lily Allen- No Friend of Mine

A really good, chilly, sad, and catchy song. Lily Allen is awesome :D

I had a horrible dream

I had a nightmare. It was one of the worst. I will write it down here, it may not be the whole dream as a few hours have passed already after I woke up from it.

I was somewhere with my sister, I just had the feeling that it was in some mall with many sega games. We were talking some nonsense and after that our parents called us and we followed them. After getting off the car, all of us were not us anymore. We were someone else. Another family.

I was the oldest son but I think I was 8 or 9 in there. My sister was a smaller kid. My parents are now brunette (-_-). We knocked on the door and it turned out to be my (or the boy's... I'm going to start saying 'boy' instead of 'my, I' its starting to give me goosebumps) parents' friends. They were chatting and blablabla, and the woman told the boy's mother about some serial killer, a red haired, black hooded man that is said to be wondering the streets near the house they are living in.

After the boy's family decided to go home, they all started tying their shoes. The boy's dad saw these crystals on the table and said they were pretty (they were pretty). They got on the car and in the middle of the way home the dad said that they all should go back to their friends' house again meanwhile he will shop the crystals he liked so much (which I think its near that house as well). They went back and the kids went inside the house of their parents' friends. The dad walked off and the mother started smoking outside.

Suddenly, a suspicious red haired black hooded man approached the mother with a cutter and attacked her. She kept on banging the door pleading to get help. The kids were wondering what was happening, and the boy (me) ran out the door and saw his mother laying on the floor. He crouched down to lift her and see her face.

Her face was destroyed. It was cut a million times, there was not even a single drip of blood left the flesh became black. She was still alive, and breathing perfectly somwhow... and she was crying. The boy started crying and hugged his mom. He started to apologize by not being by her side. He was promising that he will never leave her, ever. His mom hugged him tightly and many people came to help. They carried her inside and some others called the ambulance. The boy was still hugging his mother, in fear that she would fade away. The little sister was panicked (but it was strange since she was not crying). The father came and saw everything. He was speechless. And suddenly the boy said:

"Look at her... would you still love her even if she looked like this?!"

I could feel the boy's fear of his dad not loving his mother anymore. It's a very childish feeling. I know.

The dad started crying. And as he wanted to answer... I woke up.

I cried.

And I wished that it would never ever happen to me. Ever.

Why do you have to hide away for so long

Darkness has conquered over the town. The neighbouring island across the sea I usually see from my window dissappeared. I can't see the lights. The fog and the black sky had mated and fused into one of my biggest enemies I've ever met.

Today me, my sister, and my parents went to check the jacket I was talking about of. When we got to the store I tried it and my dad said it was horrid. Yeah, I agreed with him. I didn't know why I was so into it. We hanged the jacket back and left the store. We took a walk and went inside another store, I got a nice.. well, beautiful coat xD

BUT there is something wrong. My mucus from my throat has also over taken my nose! My ears are plunged and I am all screwed. I am planning to skip Spanish tomorrow... Really annoying. Really.

Every time I had tea, I felt like I was in heaven...

This is S I C K

Its 6.30 In the morning and I don't know why I am blogging while its usually my time to sleep. I'm sleeping now but I am not going to do anything to this page so see you

BEEP

Right now I am at school and I walked upstairs... I'm really tired and I'm sweating like mad. Not really, but I am tired. WHy didn't I take the lift? Because the lift is broken.. i think there are some people that got stuck there.

If you guys are wondering why my grammar right now is very very bad its because I am sick! My bad throat is getting worse and worse. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. uhh

Anyway, I am having media communication lessons and its really boring. They're showing us some crap. And I haven't really done all the crap. I hate this. Its very crappy. Crappy. Crappy. The teacher can't even say pop ups he says it pops up.

I'll blog later this is fucked up

The 3rd of today

Its my third post today in this blog. Today I had sukiyaki for dinner again and I am doing nothing right now...

My sister seems to like the gift I chose for her. I feel glad about it. Now she is 13, what the.. I thought she was supposed to be older or something like that. Maybe she is overly mature... NOOOOO... Whatever.

My dad was at home already before I came home. he got me this black hat. The ones that the Russian soldiers use. He even got the sign thing, but I removed it since I'm not a communist. The hat is really warm and nice, I really liked it :)

My throat is being my greatest enemy of mine right now. I can talk better now, though. This morning was pretty hard to say a single word. Today I couldn't think much. I couldn't concentrate, i couldn't even figure out such a simple maths question that I can usually finish in no time. I have no idea what is happening to me right now but I hope it won't get any worse. I dislike this so much, as you can see. Tomorrow I will have a 3 hour lesson of History and Social Science. Its pretty boring, and I don't really like my teacher. She is really nice but I don't lke her as a teacher. She is a bit bad at explaining. Sometimes it gets me irritated but in this 2nd term I have determined myself to keep my temper cool. I don't want to make a big fuzz, I just want to improve with my grades... That's all. This reminds me of something else. It reminds me of the last Chemistry test we had last term.. I'm really worried and I hope I won't get a bad grade. Please give me a VG. Please a VG. I hate Gs. I don't get why everyone's so happy about getting a G.

Today I had my first lesson of Swedish as a foreign language. What I am trying to achieve right now is to be able to speak the language fluently enough to be able to communicate in my every day life in Swedish... Whatsoever, i think I might fail. I suck at it. I suck. I know I suck.

N O T H I N G

This my second blog today and I hope there will be no number three. I wish I could be in town now with any of my friends or my family so we could go shopping together. I have been trying to distract myself with everything! But nothing seems to be working. If you haven't figure it out, I am bored like this because I have an hour doing nothingn in school. I have tried to do some maths but I got one question I got stuck with so I fucked it and threw the notebook away inside my bag.

Why am I blogging?

I have no idea... No one is reading it anyway. It has been half a year already and no one is commenting on my comments!

Yesterday I was @ Stureplan, earching for my sister's present. And I found a nice gift for her. O wait a sec, i think I wrote about this already this morning.. What a bum. What a lazy bum. Beetlebum.. what've you done? She's a guuuuuuuuuuuun... Now whatäve you done? beetlebum...

That song is really cool. Its called, well, Beetlebum and its by Blur. A 90's band that was Oasis' greatest rival. I have no idea why does Oasis take the rivalry made by the media so seriously. Oasis suck, w/e. Blur is a lot better! They have this really colourful songs and it differs from pop up to metal..-ish. Whatever. But i reccommend Blur to you. NOT OASIS. They are fuckheads for real. You should see what they do. How they mock Blur. Eww, but the thing is everythime they mock Blur.. Blur doesn't give a shit about it! Isn't that great.. lmfao

I was reading my friend's blog today and I've been commenting on her posts recently and I have been using an alias of me. She doesn't know its me! She put a P.S. saying that she is thanking me for reading her blog *whoever you are* and I started laughing. This is great. Now she hould find out who is MurdsCha.

I will soon change the layout of this stupid blog. Its stressing me. Its so emo, so stupidly emo.

I am sleepy

Right now I am in Spanish class and I got this bad throat. I am feeling the worst and I wish I could go back home right now...

Today is my sister's birthday. Yesterday I bought a round top hat for her because she has been telling me that she would really like to have one. My mo and I packed it with this gift paper full of Paddington Bears! I think its really cute.. and she likes Paddington bear :3

God. I think I will die soo enough because my throat is turning me crazy. The teacher is telling us about the national exam. Same system just like in 9th grade. Three etapes: Listen, read, and write.

Fuck. This is really not my day. Even though my dad is coming back. He bought me a nice hat^^that is what he said... But I really don't know what to say since I really hate being sick. ESPECIALLY IN MY THROAT.

Today I will end at 4.00pm.. It will be my first lesson in Swedish as a foreign language! Geez, the teacher can't speak in English so I have to force myself to speak in Swedish which is all screwed up. I sound like those Ameiricens speaking Spanish...

See ou guys got to do some español! hehrgh...

I was at school on Sunday

Today I had to wake up early, because I had to go to school. It was my school's open house. When I arrived I had to help in carrying some empty boxes to a room. After that I prepared my project with my friend's laptop. Geez for real he had a very weird password. Haha. His screen was also soo dirty I had difficulties in typing.

I had to stay inside the classroom with Stacy, Camilla, and Andreas most of the time and wait or get some gusts in and present the presentation and answer their questions. Most of them were scary as hell, but who cares... I CARE. It was really boring. It was wasting my precious time, just like I am wasting my time for you readers if there is any...

Nothing much really happened after that but after I ended I bought a banana smoothie (Gym Junkie) in naked Juice Bar. Yummy....

God... I hope those guests were convinced.

or else I shouldn't just have come...

/MVR

jag vill skicka en blogg på svenska

hejsan, hur mår du? ja ja, det är en ful fråga hahahahaha PINSAMT WTF FTW HAHAAH i dont know what to say.. wait, vänta, jag vet inte vad kan jag säga! hmm... this is weird

Right now I'm in school doing nothing. I am still in break time and I got this really gross lunch.. some pasta and salmon sauce.

Now I have moved to a class room, we started already and its pretty fucked up. I'm too lazy to do some work and all.

After school I'm gonna meet up with Jazz! My sis is coming too hehe^^ She wants to get the converse thing -____o'

WTF I know I am really bored right now, I'm blogging in here like I have no life. YAY! I have no life and I spend my whole day writing blogs and watching stupid funny videos on youtube!

I'll just. stop right now... toodles

Za M O R N I N G

Today I woke up and somehow I felt there was someone else in the crib besides me and my family, so I kept on turning on the lights. Haha... Anyway, I checked my thermometer and it showed -7.3° YES! It pissed me off so much, I hate the cold.. Every time I have to go out I will have to use multiple layers of clothes and that is such a killer. A real inflated yeti.

The bus was also late. I had to run after waiting for 10 more minutes. I was sweating like a pig in a sauna!!!

Right now I have nothing to do but I guess I will start working on my website... Hergh

I will post later.. some more stuff.. See you guys

Its Coffee After Dinner

I came back home from school perhaps four hours ago and after having a chit-chat with my mom I immediately rushed towards the kitchen and killed all the spring rolls, letting them melt in my stomach acids. Yes. I was very hungry and I over ate today, I don't know why but I am getting hungry very fast. it is sort of annoying me really.

My mom just asked me if I wanted some spinach. I can't eat more!! Now I am having a cup of coffee just to warm myself up. My feet are freezing, the weather is getting colder and colder... Again.

Today I had a one hour gap in the middle of the day with no lessons, I sort of took a nap while I was sitting on the bean bag. They're really comfortable bean bags, actually. They're orange, too. Anyway, I was so bored at that time... The place was pretty dead-silent for a school. It was a bit weird, but I will have to get used to it since its going to be like that every thursday.

I had a talk with my Swedish for beginners teacher, she couldn't speak English and she was speaking to me in Swedish the whole time so I had to force myself to speak in Swedish. It went pretty well. I presented myself, shortly and told her why I wanted to attend this special class. I was a bit stiff with my Swedish but then I just screwed it and tried as much as possible.

There have been a few people that has gotten trapped inside the lift in my school. The worst was 50 minutes. Pretty much... unlucky. I hope that won't happen to me, never ever happen to me! Except I have spanish or something like that so it would become a really good excuse for have been absent in class. Its actually a really nice idea... Maybe I should try jumping next time I have spanish... Ha ha!

Alright, I am making a promise to myself that I won't eat so much tomorrow. I don't want to get so fat...

I am going to town again tomorrow with some friends and my sis to search for the half priced converse shoes lol. Cheers!

That's; Electric Shock

I am now listening to BBC Radio 1 online, with Damon Albarn taking over Zane Lowe's place just for this night. He puts some really good music and now I am listening to one of Gorillaz's demo called Electric Shock. Damon says its still a very rough sketch, but I think its really good. I can feel the evolution but conservation of the Gorillaz's style, colour.

he also said that Murdoc is gonna be talking, too!!!

I really like this xD He puts amazing music, not like those fucked up popular songs haha...

Now he is playing this sweet guitar song thing o.O what the hell haha its sweet though.

See you guys later nad just make sure you listen to it!!!

S H I V E R S

Olright I'm in the new school building right now. Everything's not completely gone so its not only teachers and students in the school. There are builders. Ha ha, Its pretty random. The floor that I have most classes in still has no electricity. A bit fucked up, I know but I think I can handle it since they said that the lights are going to be done for tomorrow. Even so, right now I am shivering to death because I don't think they have installed the heaters and everyone is using a jacket right now. A bit weird I have to say. They keep on saying they are ahead of schedule and all but right now I think many people are suffering except for the rector that has his beautiful room.

For real, I hate my rector. He is such an Apple (Apple Inc. ---or is it an Inc. but you get what I mean) So we all get macbooks, good kids gets iPods. Everything is Mac and Apple. Its driving me mad. I know its good I got a Mac but he is so COOL wannabe. Geez, really. There many more reasons but I am too lazy to tell you, and if anyone from my school finds out I talked about these bad things about the rector... I guess I'll be this black goat in the school.

Fortunately, though, the lockers are nice I got one with a comfortable heigth and the locker is pretty big. Its DEEP. Ha ha..

Right now we are doing nothing at all. My friends are all spinning on their chairs just for the heck of it I guess. I am waiting until the next lesson to start, and we are doing nothing. After this lesson we are waiting for ends, everyone is free to go home except for those who have spanish... one of those kids. IS ME!!!

This is pretty fucked up. My friend is playing as the Godfather with his imaginary white cat -____-'

I'll see you guys later since I am getting tired of typing out stuff...

/MVR

Trying to colour my day

I may have said that it would be cool going back to school and starting to study in the new building and all, BUT I don't want to go back!!! I still want to stay home... For real.

Since yesterday I have been trying to tune up my guitar but I didn't know how until I found this one good website for guitar tuned up sounds today. It took me pretty long to get all the strings right. It really annoyed me, but then I realized I had to be more patient. I tried to get online lessons but they just go far way too fast!

fan my dad wants me to turn off the laptop see ya guys

Whoa

2009.

The new year. I just hope it will be a better one. I hope nothing bad happens, I doubt it, though. Well, more than anything else I'm just going to stop babbling around. I will just write what I feel like writing.

Since the start of every stores' big Christmas and New Years sales, I have shopped some stuff. For me, of course. I don't buy a single thing for anyone as present... ha ha. I got 2 sweaters, one from Esprit and the other one from BikBok. I also got a pair of Doc Martens shoes. Then, I also got a nice wool skirt from H&M (even though its not on sale). I don't remember more what I got but i think I got this cute weird scarf, ha ha. What else I bought I don't remember. The only thing I couldn't find for myself was a pair of tight jeans or any kind of tight pants. I don't have tight pants for God's sake!!!

I have also not have spared my time to go to the hair salon and get my haircut. Its pretty irritating. I really want a change. I'm bored of this... hair "style".

Whoa, if I ever get so much money I would not hold myself for any reason to not to buy a Gorillaz T-shirt online directly from their store... Gee, they are wonderful. Murdoc Niccals especially. He is magnificent and hard to hold but admit it, he is very mouth-watering. Huh? Yes, that green guy. Yeah, no mistakes. The bassist. he is very hot, as so many people say.

ONE WEEK LEFT BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS! I'll be starting in the new building yes! Its gonna be so cool xD

happy New Years everyone

Cheers